Easy Come,Easy Go and Easy to Leave

I think twice to makes friends with someone
but
I Don't think twice to stay away and hate back all people who hates me

So,I don't care if somebody hates me bcause thats not important

#nowplaying : Looking up - Paramore

Call The Cops

So,I think I'm falling in love with this cool band.

Trust me,this band is great

#nowplaying : love like novocaine-Call the Cops

Feel So Plain and Flat

Oh cmo'on,I need something new.

I mean about my life.

#nowplaying : secret-One Republic

I Know There's Something Wrong with My Mindset

    Someone told me that I was too quiet in school,she suggested me to be more exist. It just too hard to tell her about the reason.
And suddenly I remember about the conversation between me and one of my friends .
He asked me "Why don't you ever wanna join with the people in your school and looking for a new friends in there."
"What?stop ask me about that"
"Why?"
"I don't know,I just sick of these things. I don't like them and their mindset. Too ridiculous for me."
"How can you say that?"
"You know a lot of my friends are older than me,including you."
"Yeah and then whats wrong with your classmates?"
"Its all because the situation,it makes me be like this. I feel like I'm a nineteen years old girl but I trap in this stupid 16 years old girl's body. So they just look like a fool. I know it seems so ridiculous but thats the truth"
"I think you right,but are they so bad like that?"
"yes!they have a stupid cheap jokes and they have a really really bad of taste. They don't know anything about this life,only a few of them that can understand my mindset"
"Oh I know its so annoying you. And I think nobody will be glad to see you friends with them"
"My friends will just laugh at me if I have a friends like that"
"Absolutely yes,and I'll be include on it"

#nowplaying: tell me I'm a wreck-Every Avenue

Distress with Own Emotional

My friend just called me and we talked about many things. And he told me, "Oh com'on be more serious please"
"You just like my mom,she always say like that to me"
"You must learn to be more serious with everythings"
"Why so serious?I don't wanna be so serious"
"Why?"
"If you too serious you'll get hurt. I mean its like broken"'
"Hey,broken is a friction. If you never feel broken,you'll never feel happy"
"You just too serious."
"Can you behave like any other normal person?"
"What?normal?If everybody different,how the normal can be exist?"
"I mean act like your other friends."
"Friends?What kind of friends?You know what? Honestly I'm not too confident with friends. Sometimes they like to being a backstabber,liar,traitor and so hypocritical"
"Don't be so skeptic. I'm your friend and you don't need to hesitate with me"
"I just believe in my best friends,I know I have many best friends but sometimes I still hesitate with them."
"Care with all people you've meet and they'll give their attention to you too. It will make you feel better"
"Oh cmo'n this is my life,I'm doing better in my own. Don't be so serious."

He sent me this text message after we finished our conversation in the phone

#nowplaying : Six Feet Under the Stars-All Time Low

Screaming of My Heart

Tell me that it's over and I'll be not fine.

I'll tell you it's over and I'm sure I'll be Fine.

I'm sure I'm not missing you,I just miss our time,together.

#nowplaying: situasi-bunkface

All You Tell to Me

You said "You are a looser" then I answered "You are a fool"

You said "You are bastard" then I answered "You are smartass"

You said "You are weak" then I answered "You are misguidance"

You said "You are arrogant" then I answered "You don't know me"

You said "You are useless" then I answered "You are unimportant person"

You said "I'm better then you in every things" then I said "You are not better than me and I'm not better than you"

That's the truth

#nowplaying : The middle-Jimmy Eat World

I'm Losing Focus

    So today I woke up,tried to survive with my life and will back to bed. Yeah,everyday always be like that and I'm just kinda bored with it. Feel broken everyday,distress and trap in my own imagination. I don't know why my life is so messy like this

    Sometimes I scream to God "Hey God,hit me with a cool things. Give me a flush,I need something new". And I always wonder "Why God always teach me how to make a deal with a bad thing and sometimes He teach me how to make a deal with a good thing? ". I mean my life,I know I have many good things and in the same time ,I know I have a lot of bad things 

I think my life is just like a puzzle.

#nowplaying : the scientist-Coldplay

Third Times to Hello

Michelle Jeremya/Micel/Mcl

I'm 16 years young or maybe 19 years young

I'm Originally from Indonesia

I'm clean

I hate school

I don't do smoke,drunk and drugs

I don't hate a fool I just hate their stupid mindset

#nowplaying : twin chevron action flash- Sabrepulse remix